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I think maybe...im getting alittle too demanding. I know it is bad, but I dont know how to stop. All I want is for you to give me your attention. But ofcourse you cant be there all the time, you have your commitments I have mine. I know you are always concern about me, but I hope you could show out that concern of yours amd not keep it silently to yourself..expect me to know that you care about me.... in the earlier times you would always voice out your concern for me, no matter how stubborn I am, you will always try to pacify me...these days... It just felt like you stopped trying... like sometimes I just say "Im unhappy" when I expect you to say more, you just say "oh dont be unhappy"... Sometimes I tell you about my other friends relationship, not cause im comparing you, I love you for who you are..i just think maybe you could learn something just like how im learning from the others,step by step on how to love a person better as well.. But of course not all the time, sometimes I just want to tell you about the incidents cause it is really sweet...and I feel like I can just tell you anything. Who else am I suppose to tell all these tl if it is not you? Cause everytime I tell my friends about something sweet this guy did for this girl, they will just go "Ask your boyfriend do also lor!" No one gets it that maybe I just want to say it out, I dont need any action similar to that couple as well.... I love all beautiful things, kind deeds and everything which will warm a person's(or only maybe mine own) heart, and I just feel the need to say it,give alittle credit to that person who did something nice to brighten up someone's day..is there anything wrong? Yeah maybe im a tough nut to handle.... I dont make senses in alot of things(even in this post) but I guess thats just me... But there's only a thing I will always and forever be clear of: I love you, my piggy, my love♥ 
Somehow, there are just some mornings where I just hoped to wake up, and seeing some really sweet text messages of yours.....which never happened..oh well It won't cause you are not that kind of romantic person anyway~ Though some of the things you do are really sweet... ♥ 
This year's birthday will be a memorable one definitely.... cried on the starting of my bday, cried during the last minutes of my bday....all for the same person.. Clock stroked 12, aug 9...I was hoping all along and eagerly waiting for your msg to wish me happy birthday....you didnt.. I was hoping more than just a Happy birthday!...maybe I love you or something..idk...but you didnt give me...im pretty hurt Morning..you came to look for me at home, I was really happy... you gave me the presents..I couldn't believe you just made a crystal castle for me, I love it alot, I was super touched...almost cried, tears of joy, but I thought..no no more tears for today...but I was so happy, I really am Night....11plus, close to 12...you were saying previously over dinner that its super late, later no mrt home...I told you to go home straight after,dont need send me home..when I was saying that, there is that little part of me hoped that you will insist on sending me home..you didn't.. On the train I was hoping and hoping ..maybe...you would want to spend more time with me like how I would want to spend more time with you...but..nah, you left with the rest to take train home...the train door closed..I started crying....stupid me, why am I crying? Im the idiot who said to go home...and also the idiot who contridicts her self and want you to send me home...im retarded arent I? I can't even put my feelings across..cause I have a stupid egoistic nature and cause I dont want to be lay off as spoiled... we quarrelled..on my bday, few mins after my bday....I cried nonstop...I stopped and begin again stupid girl, why are you so weak? I love you alot...thats why everything you do matters to me, all the good and bad..and everything you say, I remember every single one clearly.. Idk about you...but I sure hell love you a little more each day...every single day.. Happy Birthday to me  
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