Happy Chinese New Year 2013~~!
Collect all the angbaos! Hehhe yay!
And thats probably the only thing im 'excited' about, collecting money.
Otherwise its just......another normal day where you get to wear pretty clothes.

And lately i have been thinking so much that it kinda scares me
Some friends around always tell me that, love makes people weak. Well i guess it did made me weak even if i dont want to. Sometimes i think, if i do not have any emotions, will i ever have all these feelings i never felt before after i got attached? But im living in bliss right now, i have someone who loves me this much ^^
But sometimes, my heart felt pain whenever i think that one day you might leave me, or not bother about me anymore, possibly finding another girl or something about you come out of army..And that was then i realised i have so many insecurities.
I tried to just think that probably i am just being oversensitive but i guess as a girl, you cant help but have all these moments. I know you love me alot, but sometimes a girl needs to be shown love rather than them just knowing like this and then done, that settles everything. A girl loves been shown how much she meant to a guy, she loves surprises and little things her guy would do for her....Or maybe thats just me.
I'm trying to be a good girlfriend, sometimes maybe i feel i tried too hard. Do you even think of me as much as i think of you? Everyday, i just yearn for you to be by my side, nothing more. Maybe cause we are too busy, we cant meet up that often. But even just seeing you for 5minutes would probably be enough for me. I guess maybe you never thought of this before. Fine, i probably always have my childish side which everyone always sees in me, but thats just the happy me because no one likes it when im too serious. But my thinking i believe, it could be more matured than any other people, its just that i dont show it. With you, i can always be myself, the childish side, and the serious side if needed. Sometimes maybe, i probably even show you expressions or reactions which others might not have the privilege to even see it..Maybe? Idk. But then again, i must say, sorry for all the troubles i give you, for all the worries you always have for me, and me...just being an idiot which you can't handle.

Shit, maybe im falling too deep, something i told myself i would not do. I somehow always believe in that logic, don't ever fall too hard, the first who falls deep first,loses out. I really wonder.
But i daresay, you are one of the best thing that ever happened in my life, i never ever regret knowing you.

 I wish, i could feel like i deserved love. I feel so unworthy of people's affection.

Monday, February 04, 2013 • 1:54 AM • 0 comments

Somehow looking at my past pictures and thinking back, did I realised I grew alot. Oky maybe not only me, all of us grew up alot, weathet in terms of looks, thinkings or character. Maybe from the end of last year to this year, I guess im more matured in my thinkings than previously?? Yeah sure I have my own kiddish actions and childish ways but doesnt that makes it somehow more interesting? XD ahh im starting to refuse to get any olderrr>< 18 is such a perfect age if only I can get stuck at 18 hehe! But oh well, people have to grow up eventually~ I want to remain as a kid foreverrrr~~ Le randombpost hahaha signing off!